好久没见的你们

好久没见面，好久没聊天

中学的朋友，永远都是最棒的好朋友

没有攻心计，没有伪装，一起长大，一起拥有那些年

今天一起的日子让我怀念和你们一起的日子

一起上课，一起下课，一起上厕所，一起建立的友情

现在各奔前程，各自为自己未来打拼，自己有自己的生活

迟多些，见面越变越难，读书的到各洲读书，internship 的internship,UK 的UK,做工的做工

我还真的有点舍不得你们


也许在这我要放下面子，对某个你说对不起，

曾经我对你的偏见，曾经我在你背后说过的坏话

对不起，让我们的友情恢复到以前吧

你永远都会是我的姐妹


我的知己们，加油

为生命加油，为各自努力

友谊永远都会是最棒的

爱你们♡♡♡

空间

突然拥有那些冲动

把所有一切可以找到我的方式都关上

很想静一静，想一想，寻找继续前进的冲动

这几天的心情都很不好，很多东西烦

这两天的我感觉很不舒服

发烧退烧，发冷发热，断断续续的

心情一直都提不起劲来

我知道不是他的错

但是就是把什么脾气都发在他生身上

现在居然还有冲动把电话关上，把所有人都排斥在外

女人总有几天会心情很糟糕，总是提不起劲来

但是我未免也太严重了吧？

强制自己别继续那样，但是就是做不到

这几天的脾气真的很糟糕

很努力的压制自己不让自己爆发

但是却忍到很辛苦，很有冲动大哭一场

但是却找不到想哭的原因

觉得自己很无聊，却控制不了自己><""

严重的女人病！！

每个月都一次！！ 弄得我都自己讨厌自己了！！！

该不该继续？

好久没回来这里写写了，

只是久久经过一下看看朋友们的状态，

看着每个朋友都拥有着各自的烦恼，

说真的，我真的真的很久没自己面对烦恼了，

自从生命有了他后，他总是在我烦恼时呵护我，给我指导，帮我解决，

真的解决不了的时候，他会好好听我述说，陪陪我，帮我擦眼泪，说：“没关系，你还有我。”

他真的很不错，这证明当初我选择接受回他是正确的答案。。



但是。。。他想早结婚

总是嚷着我说他想拥有一个自己的家

这让我很困扰，我应该继续升学吗？

其实女生最后的目标是要拥有一个温暖的家？

还是个可以不靠人的女强人？

说实在的我自认自己是个属于比较传统的女生

我也想有个家，有自己的宝宝

慢慢的看着自己宝宝长大，陪着他所有的第一次

但是不继续升学是否太浪费了？

我虽然不是读书的料，但是我曾经很努力很努力的让自己赶上他人

虽然还不是很好，但至少不错

如果停止升学，我会不会后悔？

但是如果升学后，我会不会在浪费时间，浪费金钱？


也许在这个社会里，21,2 岁结婚通常都会被人冠上“奉子结婚”

其实我的心是在想在避谣，还是想自由？

有时我真的会想就读到diploma 吧。。

但是。。也许我从小就被破碎家庭围绕着。。

强悍的自我保护总是会问我

如果哪一天我们分手或离婚了呢？

到时我又没靠山，没学历，我如何向人竞争？

也许有人会说我在无病呻吟，但是我就是从破碎家庭长大的呀

我就是在阴影中长大的


朋友们应该会觉得我很笨吧，就等到你读完先啦

但是没可能我一读完就嫁了吧？

感觉上太对不起我妈了

但是托多几年就感觉对不起他了

因为他总是很诚恳的告诉我他想结婚


有时会想如果现在和他在一起的不是我，他应该结婚了吧？



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我是在浪费他的时间吗？



我那种柔茹寡断的烂性格真的很害死人





我该怎样？

没人可以谈谈，没人可以说说



自己又做不了决定。。


我真的是烂透了。。。

新的一年来临咯

现在是凌晨3.49a.m

一个人在属于我和我姐姐的房间里无聊着

无聊，我好像很久没这种感觉了

自从跟他在一起后，我们就像蜜糖和蜜蜂，很少分开过，他也很少让我感觉到什么叫无聊

他是坏蛋，今天和朋友钓鱼去，把我一个人留下，sad..

但是还好他又把他的宝贝车留给我，让我自个儿驾车回家

至少不用一个人孤零零的留在宿舍里。。。


现在是考试周，我坚信一份耕耘一分收获

Account其实并没我想的那么难

说真的经过上个学期的教训，我真的有专心上课了

事实也证明，今天的考试我都会做，超开心的

回想月中考时，我在温习时，居然看不明白，最后还当场就哭了起来

他给我吓到。连忙帮我檫眼泪，哄我笑

第2天一大清早，他就载我到lysee那里去蘑菇=.=

其实当我用心地去读，我发现它其实一点都不难=.='''

真不明白为什么当初我会哭到那么惨=.=''  想不通...没形象啦



wao...新的一年，感觉上我变了

一路来不爱整齐的我，居然爱上了打扫

什么改变了我？ 我不知道

重来不洗厕所，嫌厕所臭的我，居然乖乖的洗了3 个厕所

而且还感觉很enjoy=.=""

我真想问下自己是不是傻了，读书读傻了脑？？？




我真是强大，佩服我自己

27号开始考试，现在才6号

我居然把vampire dairies season1 & 2 都看完了

一个season 有22集 =.="

难以想象我在抱着什么心态读书=.=""

现在居然还有冲动要下载season 3....

opps....stop...... 别碰了，忍多两天就好。。ok??

乖

oh yeah.... 最后一科 。。macroeconomic ^^

我会打倒你的哦。。



新的一年，新的开始

从前的那种时光只能回忆，不能触及

放下过去，抬头仰望

对新的一年说我爱你

新的一年要活到比去年好

开心过着每一天

珍惜着心跳的每一时刻

感恩世界，感恩父母，感恩一切

我会活的更好。更开心

I'm get ready ^^ move forward...

2013....I'm WELCOME u ^^

I suddenly have the feel miss my blog..

I suddenly have the feel miss my friends....

I suddenly have the feel miss my family...

I suddenly have the feel want to travel..

I suddenly feel appreciated to all the things that i own now...

I have a gang of good friends..

My secondary friends....My tertiary friends..

I have a bf tat treat me very nice...

He always give the things i want to me...

He can accept all my bad temper... all my things..

I have my family members that love me so much....

They will forever at there ready for protect me n gv me support...

I love my everythings..

I appreciated......






I just a average person..

everything just average ...

Result average..... Skill average.... Relationship average...

i just a very simple person in this world...

I was average... even i try hard to change it... no-mather how hard i try to change it

i try hard to study... my result average..

i try hard to ply... my result oso average...

sometime i really dun know want how to do..

i have think b4 let myself ply hard.... bt.... i know jz will kill me..

n.. i no dare to try...

i scare if i try.... my result will nvr cover bak agn..

The coursework marks have out..

bt all the results are not i want..

6 subjects... all average at 60++

i think i hv try my best to do my revision... bt the result is still bad..

is me too greedy or i m really bad??

i dun know... haizzz.... it really make me no mood to do revision anymore...

27th December ... my sem 2 Final in coming...

i swear i hv put a lot effort for this sem... nvr absent for any lecture n tutorial..

Concentrate when during class....

bt i really dun know why my result still cant be more better...

the very cruel fact show tat Teo Su Teng is a stupid....

a very noob girl...

haizzz......bt.... pls dun nvr think to give up k??

I believe i can do it...

My future is inside my hand...

I can do it!!

Teo Su Teng can do it..

ya... just do it... n fighting....!!!

My life

Times and tides wait for no man....

Time keep passing away..

Child keep growing up..

We keep getting mature...

Parents keep getting older....


Unbelievable... i m 18th now..

Tertiary study....

After my SPM.... when i get my result..

i just got the feel "disappointed"

i can't believe i get a "D" for my BM...

and.... this cause me give up to study form six...

6A 3B 1D ... anf i have resit for my BM..

also get a C+

wat the shit of BM result><""

My dream is chemical enginnering ..

My dream is can have a high pay like my sis...

at the end..

don't know why..

i give up this dream..

i choose TARC..Diploma in Finance and Investment...

i nvr imagine i will choose this course b4..

i dun know why i will choose this..

mayb is the degree at ENGLAND have attractive me...

go oversea study is one of my dream..

mayb this is the reason why i choose this course...



I dun know i hv choose wrong or not..

all my friends that choose F6 for their tertiary life like so suffer..

all get a very bad result..

all of them totally cant accept the cruel fact..

ytd sem1 STPM finish..

many of them feel disappointed 

many of them say their will fail...

the question follow old syllabus

erm... i should glad i no choose STPM????



Mid term.... kill me...

Account.... stress....

b4 when go in college... i still think study college is honey years....

but....that is false..

mayb that is fact... but no in TARC..

14 weeks... 6 subject... every subject 3 coursework....1 assignment... n presentation..

that is stress.. i willing to study 4 more months...

but not so many subjects in every sem....

hiazzzz..... actually i got abit regret..

why i choose ART but not SCIENCE?

i just get 3.2088 at 1st sem...

what the shit terrible result???

i m not never do revision..

just because i really dislike account n economic..

haizzz.... i think i should change my thinking d...

this is the way i choose..

even that is hard.... but i should continues....


one more month... Final...

last week i absent all the lecture n tutorial..

bcz of sukipt competition...

everyday training.... but at the end lose for a bad luck..

meet the Champion team....

why our effort nvr appreciate by the god><"""

haizz... anyway...

i choose to quit volleyball school team..

yup....i love it...

but... i cant....

i have no time training everyday...

everyday training until 8+pm...

after take dinner and back.... already 9+ 10..

and the body is tired.... how to study??

assignment....presentation... test....nvr bcz i m a school team n treat me well..

haizz... for me... result more important..

Goodbye my Volleyball...I will miss you..

Anyway... keep tell myself...

gayao...Teng... u can do it...


finish class today^^

next week is holiday..

go back home later..

finish my midterm...

waiting my dear finish working n send me back home...

have a nice day ^^

♥^^ I enjoy my life ^^♥

I love my recently life....

i very enjoy my life ^^

have a lot of friends....

all the new friends...

learning how to survive in a place without protection of family...

actually...i still very near my house =P

just i keep want move out to get my freedom ...

haha.......at first....

i feel U life actually is quite busy..feel a bit regret...

but now i think that is quite enjoy compare to my friends who r studying Form 6 in school..

i c them like very stress everyday....the life is only keep study study n study...

20 essays have to memories><""

wao.....if is me.....that almost equal to kill me ><"

i m lucky i no choose F6..



haha.....but at here......i keep playing...

my test get a very a bad result><""

this make me need very hardworking when final...

anyway.....i m lucky i know a lots of friends here..

after i come here.....

i only know...TARC actually  no that bad like ppl say..

all my classmates r friendly...

they r very hardworking n clever...

many of them have scored very well in their SPM..

However...haha....all the class i join also is girls more than boys..

my tutorial class just gt around 7 boys..

but majority of them no like a boys..

mayb join too much girls jo...wakakaka...

my co-cu also face the same problem....just 5 boys join my class..

so kolian.....make them no enuf ppl to form a team...

never mind la ^^ u ppl r the best...

co-cu day....my team get the 1st place...

wao ^^ ............ happy...

very thx the supporter....u ppl r so nice ^^

n......all my teammates ^^..

u ppl make this game prefect ....<3

teacher keep ask me go school team training><""

i very lazy la sir.....

haizzz....next semester><""

promise jo go train ball...

but...i.......lazy lazy lazy...






recently....i feel myself become more positive d ^^

i long time no angry n emo d..=)

but....i miss my secondary school friends deeply...

my Hui Ting ...Yin YIn..Lai Man...Yee san...Bing......Jun yi....Choo....n so on...

i really miss them><""

long time no c them d...

haizzzzz..........

wish tat our friendship can keep moving forward..

never stop bcz of distance...

all the ppl hv their own life..

all my dear..

gambateh ^^

i love u all so much..

fight together ^^

our future is belong to us..

that will b bright n beautiful ^^

super emotion.....T^T

long time no step in to my blog d..

every times i cum back for update my blog...

sure i m in the down mood..

i m emotion agn...

i m confusing agn...

i feel want cry agn..terrible...

i dun know want how to do my decision...

i dun know how to take responsibility for my future...

i hate...

y life need do so much decision??

if step wrong...it will regret for whole life...

teng...wat ur decision now???

can u make ur mind strong???

y u always keep changing???

F6 or diploma????

can sumone cum kill me??

i hate to do decision!!

damn bullshit!!!

TEO SU TENG!!! u r terrible..... !!! u r bullshit!!!


i almost get mad><""""




n.....u oso...

paper r always cant cover well the fire...

at the end.....my sis know the true oso..

she want me make decision agn..

she want me just b a gud friend with u...

Sry...i no dare to do decision agn...

i m self fish...

can i trow all the responsibility to u??

i m tired..

super tired....

haizzz.......anyone help me??

no...nobody can help except myself..

my own future...

haizzz....

TERRIBLE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


BULLSHIT!!!! DAMN!!!! JI DAN GAO!!!

ALL GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!!

I NEED PRIVATE SPACE..

I NEED ALONE!!!!

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haizzz...

the thing bcum terrible agn...

i m the loser in this game...

i m totally lose...

i feel want to escape...

bt....recall back...

i think actually this just a small matter is it?

actually just a small case...

y make it until like the world end?

tell myself...

calm calm calm...

tat will cross over it no longer later..

i shouldn't escape...

i should face to the problem...

ya...

just the way...

face the problem...

i very need to thx all the friends who r caring me..

jiaying,warren,yin,ting,wen,bing n my dear...

thx all of u...

bcz of u all..

i think i should stop to escape...

dare to face the problem...

all will b all right after this...

tell myself cheer...

smile n b happy...!!

teng .... Ur tears hv dry...

dun cry agn..

tat is useless...

u can do it..

believe urself...

dun think so much...

believe hard it will b alright after this....

just enjoy ur life...

strong believe on urself^^

真正的朋友

Haizzz....

烦…

经过那么多事后…

我终于知道谁才是我的朋友…

谁还是真正关心我的人…

那些做作的人…

我怕了…

真正的怕了....

当我有困难时，站出来帮我的是你…

我真的打扰了你很多很多...

我居然要你为了我说了很多谎…

我真的良心过意不去…

我真的把你当我的好友…

真正的好友…

谢谢你为我说过的每一句谎话…

但是…

这几天发生太多事了…

让你左右为难…

对不起…

我真的很对不起！

我很想退出！

我很想离开…

我真的很烦！

就快要崩溃了！

我讨厌嘻皮笑脸伪装的样子!

我讨厌要天天说谎的生活！

我讨厌！讨厌！讨厌！

为什么明明就是不喜欢，还要伪装？

就纯粹为了逢场作戏？

为什么明明就是心里有刺…还要强颜欢笑？

为什么明明就是讨厌，还要假装喜欢？

我还是喜欢读书的日子…

所有朋友都过着无心机的生活…

打打闹闹…

玩脱衣…气老师…一起努力读书…一起讨论功课…

这些生活真的很棒...

至少你不用伪装…

朋友的好，是真心的好…

朋友的讽刺只是一种玩笑…

但是现在？

假！

伪装！

社会就是这样？

什么东西让人心变得恐怖？

我真的很怕…

她们做作…虚伪…

这种朋友？我不想要…

但是你是对我真心的…

我真正的朋友…

我很后悔把你卷入这麻烦…

我很后悔叫你来做工…

我很怕你会崩溃…

我很怕我会失去你这个朋友…

我很怕很怕…

这社会真的太复杂…

不是我想要的生活…

我可以隐居吗？

我可以过些简单生活吗？

我以后就要过着这些生活？

不要！

我讨厌！！！！！！

委屈

不懂从何说起！

人？

是自私的…

是现实的…

这社会并没有我们想象中简单…

社会是残酷的…

适者生存…

懂的耍心机的人就可以把简单的人打倒…

对不起！

我认输了…

我真的真的彻底输了...

现在我的感觉很差很差…

我不喜欢这样的生活…

很压力和压力…

但是，谢谢有你的出现…

你努力让我开心…

努力迁就着我…

努力为我分担烦恼…

真的很谢谢你…

至于另一个你！？

卑鄙小人！

我讨厌！

做作！

你让我懂得笑里藏刀的道理！

你让我开始对这社会产生恐惧…

我怕了！

真的怕了…

你真的很贪心…

commision抽了我们那么多！

还可以假装摆着笑脸给我们看？

那些Customers都是我辛苦Serve来的！

但是你有公平吗？

你脸皮真的那么厚吗？

全部都是你的？

配！

去吃你的大便拉！

做人真的那么贪心？

如果你贪几张罢了，我还没关系！

但是，现在的你超过分的！

天天那些单都写你的名…

吊你！！！

贪心啦…

我以前知道，但是我选择不说…

因为我知道不该这么做，但你们有吗？

你？？

说我天天欺负你？

我想是你欺负我比较多吧？

天天叫我做这样做那样…！

然后自己在那拍马屁！

死马屁精！

别假假了啦！

鸟你！！！！

每次你做错事，我帮你纠正，把这些当小事！并没和其他人说！

但是当我做错，你并没告诉我！反而去打小报告！唯恐没人知道...然后说我坏话去…

你们时常说我坏话以为我不知道？

我知道！

但是我忍…

我当做没事发生！

但是你未免也太过分了吧？

天天做错事，然后勉强认是你做！

让其他人都以为你是无辜，我才是最佳祸首！

去死吧！

统统去死吧！

说我贪物虚荣？

因为喜欢他的钱才接受他？

对！

他有钱！

很有钱！

但是，我从来就没有贪过他的钱！

不像你！

你把你男友当什么？

狗吗？

叫他来就来，叫他走就走？

喜欢就发他脾气？

他也是人好不好？

而且天天要他买这买那给你！

你是不是比我更糟糕？

买鞋，买衣！

全部我都用自己的钱！

虽然他很乐意为我付！

但是我都没接受！

这样叫贪物虚荣？

那你天天要男友买这买那给你，这叫什么？

老姐姐！

请说话时用脑想想！

我得罪到你吗？

踩到你尾巴吗？

你需要这样吗？

你？

我很讨厌！

真的很讨厌！！

忍，我已经很努力的忍着！

眼泪？

不听话的流…

委屈…

只有自己的心知道！

我讨厌

我讨厌笑里藏刀的人…

你们很恐怖…

不是我想要的朋友！

我们永远都不会是朋友！

永远都只会在平行线没有交集…

我恨！

我累！

我怕了！

委屈的眼泪只能流给自己看…

valentine's day

14th feb 2012....

valentine's day..

i m 18th ^^

many confess at the day....

many boys send gift to their love girl oso...

so sweet ^^...

bt cant imagine...

i receive oso...

a bouquet of flower....


so unbelievable.....^^

i so like it...

thx....

u make me touch...

make me soft.....

i accept jor u......







bt......

sry....

i choose honest to my family...

i tell my mum d...

n.....as expected...

a quarrel.....

a quarrel happen....

my mum dun want let me 2gether with u....

my mum dun want to see u...

she keep my hp agn...

she try to stop me for work...

she try to stop me contact with u.....

bt.....

i will try..

try to 5 chance really heart in heart with my mum...

try say with her...



n...i feel so touch to my dear friends oso...

touch for ur caring...

i really touch..

my best friend..

best friend 4ever..

i love u all...



n...my work..

i start to enjoy my job..

i getting close to my colleagues..

i think this is a good thing for me...

ah qi......

Want go jor..

she hv change work..

all the best ya^^

my dear cyy cum work 2gether with me oso..

although bcz of u...i let nathery scold..

bt....it's ok...

bcz u nice to me^^

so nvm la..

wish u will enjoy this job oso ya..

all the best to us^^

ntg special

wao...

ntg special for 2day..

damn tired...

2day work busy from 3pm until 9pm..

non stop...><"

haha....bt nvm la..

we edi lazy for so many day...haha...

after cny...no customers..

quite free oso..

everyday go work surf fb....sms.....

ntg can do d...

i decide to quite this work jor..

my last day is 14th Feb..

valentine's day...

valentine's day without lover ...

hhaha...




Guo Chong help me 5 a work...

b a piano teacher..

tmr go interview...

i m damn scare now.....

i hv long time nvr pratice my piano...

can i handle it??

my piano skill is damn terrible...

aiya><""

how ya???

i really no confidence to myself...

bt....no ppl can help me><"""

Guo Chong always ask me dun worry...

he nvr take exam oso can go teach..

ya la...i know u pro la..

u hardworking to learn ur guitar..

bt me??

just half half...

bad tempo....bad speeding><""

how o??

i really scare la...

T^T.....

god ya god...

bless me ya....

all the best to me....

teng....jiayou...


yesterday.... insomnia...

no mood..

dun know y..

until 5 am oso cant fall in slp...

lol><""

i go to bad since 1am...

aiya..kolian><""

y i want b girl??

every month sure gt the few days no mood n insomnia...

tired die me jor la....!!!!!!!!

hate hate hate...><""""""

我不配....

曾经听人说过…

在忙也别忘了微笑…

因为在某一处，某一个角落你…

将会有个人深爱着你的微笑…

你的一切…………

哇…

多浪漫…

但…听起来仿佛只是一个童话…

是个美丽的童话…

我从来没有想过真的会发生在我这丑女，肥婆的身上…

江永康…

我真的很想对你说，对不起…

对不起我的无情…

对不起我总是不领你情…

对不起辜负了你对我的爱…

谢谢你对我关怀…

谢谢你对我这几年的坚持…

你做的这些真的让我感动…

但是…

对不起…

我不能接受你...

我只能把你当好友…

很好很好的哥哥…

你是个好男人…

有钱...

愿意付出…

愿意改变…

但是…

也许你遇错人了...

你把你的真心，你的爱给了不应该给的人…

加油…

希望你找到比我更好，更懂得珍惜你的女生…

你的爱…

我不配....

对不起…………

confusing

Chinese new year ing..

2day is the 5th day of 2012 cny..

2day...i totally no mood...

i have long time no on blog n fb..

reason??

work...

now...i work at a butik shop..

name T.G the gray...

recall back when i start to work..

i really regret..

damn tired..

need stand for whole day..

n....the relationship between my colleagues n i oso not that good...

from here.....

i know something fact truth...

human r selfish...

n....i started to feel scare for them...

they can this second at ur back say all ur bad...

bt next second come to ur front n talk nice wih u...

they can hind their real feeling n pretend very nice to u..

wao!!!!

i hate....!!!

if u really don't like somebody..

pls say out...

dun like this lo...

let me feel like u all like a smiling tiger..

the tigers will kill u at any second when u uncarefull...

bt...i oso learn something from u all oso...

like makeup....

both of u always ask me to make up..

n teach me make up oso...

both of u r no patient at all..

not a good teacher....

some time both of u r friendly..

sometime both of u let me feel like a an enemy..

i really fell confuse what both of u treat me like??

n.......i always hang out with both of u..

all my close friends n family say i have change....

ya....i think i should admin i have change....

i hate the feel of alone...

u know the feel??

stay at home all the time...

life without entertainment??

when every bodies have some topic to say...

i hv no experience for the place at all??

u all know my feel???

bt.....i should not find some excuses for myself oso...

i really gv them influence...

they like buy brand...

like vios...nichii..hang 5 ...n so on...

what is this all??

b4 i work.....i hv no idea at all..

bt now...i get use to it...

i get use for rm 100 for per shoes..

rm 100 for per shoes let me think tat r cheaper...!!!

OMG!!!

i know i hv change...

i hard to control myself...

bt i already try to control..

every times hang out with them..

they sure gt buy some things...

bt...me??

just simply follow them...

n buy ntg...

i admin my self control not tat bad....

but...i can control myself n buy ntg...

tat already make me proud to myself...

bt...what in their eyes??

they always say me hangout n buy ntg...

hey..girls.....i m not tat rich la..

i just imply hangout with ur guys only....


n..................................they ask me faster to 5 a bf....

they always act sweet with their bf...

i think tat oso one of the reason i cant go in with them....

everydays see them gt bf send food n fetch them back...

actually....my heart will feel envy....

ya....a bad feeling...

i admin with it....

they let me feel alone...

n feel bored oso...

haizz...i hate this type of feeling....

i still rmb "u" tell me b4...

寂寞能让一个人失去理智。。。

b4 tat...i cant get ur feeling...

bt now..

i know it...

n...the day u ply with me ...

i tell u one sentences tat u tell me b4...

别在我寂寞时说爱我

因为我会相信你所说的话。。。

n...i know u know the feeling what i m trying to tell u....

n...i know...u just treat me as a very best friend as i treat u...

u do all the thing like a best friend....

pls....dun do over...

dun treat me so nice...

bcz i scare...

i scare i will do something wrong let me regret...

the day u tell me...

u wish me can 5 a bf in U...

u wish me hv a good future...

my heart feel confuse....

ya...thx ur wish...

n....pls stop treat me tat nice....

i feel very thx for ur this few days treatment...

accept all my unreason request...

u do it all to me...

actually u can no need do this type of things..

bt....u do it...

u know what the feel u gv me??

u let me feel i m chirldish....

i m stupid...

i m useless....

u let me feel i cant stand at ppl sides n think abt them..

like what i treat u..

i feel i m super obstinate...

sry...

i swear i wont interrupt ur life agn...

let us b best friend agn..

n...very thx...

u is a very nice guy...

wish u hv a good future n fast 5 a new gf...


lastly...

Teo Su Teng...

pls do back urself...

pls 5 back ur dream...

stop nonsense.,....childish...n stupid!!!

faster 5 back ur study mood...

5 back ur dream...

dun stop here....

pls....

do back ueself....!!!!!!

Teng good luck for ur SPM

oMG!!!!!!!

time n tides wait for no man >^<

time pass one seconds by one seconds...

never wait for somebody...

so fast....

the date between spm n now just left only 2 days....!!!!

OMG......

did i prepare well?.

i don't think so!!!!

i m so anxious now...

i scare i cant take a good result...!!!!!

2day....'she' tell the somebody said.....

'aiya......she ar(me)...sure lose,if compare to her sis...'

wao!!!!so hurt lo...

like this say me..><......

compate pmr result...

i just less one A only lo....

haizzz.......

bt now?

i hv no confident now...

anxious....tension....stress...

bt the majority emotion engulf me is worry....!!!

i m worring i cant take a good result.....

i hope i can take a good schoolarship to jump stpm...

if can...for sure i dun want to take stpm...

bt.............

is my result top enough?

i don't think so...

erm.....

scare!!!!!

i edi give up my sejarah...

totally give up!!

i hate!!!

haiazzzzz.....

nothing can do...

try hard...learn hard...

n

pray hard!!!!!!

i wish i can take a flying colour result...

i wish that is worthwhile to spend so many time for study....

i wish ......

sincerly wishes.....

SPM..........

fight!!!

my future?

that will be a rainbow waiting for me...

Teng....faster caught up....

caught up to the bright future belongs to you.....!!!

that will be sunshine....rainbow.......twilight......

after the horrible nightmare...

there are full of hopes .....

 full of happiness....

n full of lifes....

Teng....don't give up...

say to urself...

U can.....

u believe u can....

nobody can say u cant....!!

just ignored the person who are look down on you...

confident to urself...

try ur best....

good luck for ur coming SPM.....

Everyday i look down from the builting from Fadason...

i always have the feel want jump down fron here...

9th floor...

if really jump?

sure die....

bt..is the thinking crazy?

just bcz of a SPM go end my life?

ya...i m crazy....

totally crazy......!!

ntg can say...

just

Gambateh... \(^.^)/ 

♥毕业了咯♥

 ♥My f5 graduate day ^^ ♥


finally......i hv graduated...

shapo ^^

 my mum n i^^

classmate ^^









回想F1进入这间学校，

我被安排进了1@9..

一个没人读书的 班

一个不用读书都可拿前几名的班^^...
bt...i know wen yi...倩蘅 at the time...
hv a very good memory with them
always poteng perhimpunan together^^

ply 2gether n talk 2gether..
a very relax year....

不久，升上了F2...

进了2@11...

一个一半坏小孩，一半乖宝宝的班...

我....

当时完全没读书..

天天捧着爱情小说猛啃..

考试别人手上读着书

我的手上读着小说

上课每节都是小说

不管是Pn tan,pn thevagi...还是其他的老师..

我都是看小说...

天天在班给那些贱男人欺负...

天天人身攻击...

但..

我因此很荣幸认识到俊宇和汉聪...

他们俩是我在F2最棒的朋友...

当时，我在别人眼中是很烂的人...

但他们从不欺负我，

有时还帮我,.

真的很感激他们...

jun yi n I ^^







升上F3....

3@11...

多数2@11的好学生都去了12....

天天看小说的我，

当然就只在11....

在11....

我有好多美好的回忆...

雪芬...

我的死党兼姐妹

永慧，薇玲，bovien等...

我F3的死党...姐妹...

F3是我最拼的时候..

我戒掉了小说...

用功读书

证明了给许多人看..

我不是烂苹果...

别看低我....

因为这样...

我当时被很多人讨厌

他们都说我Lcly...

对丫！我是Lcly...

因为我有料！

怎样？

每天欺负我....有能力就用成绩来赢我啦！

没脑>^<

觉得我Lcly是因为你们不曾来接近我，来认识我...

我的性格就是这样...

接受到的就来...

接受不到的，闪一边去..

我不稀罕有你们这些朋友...

3@11....是我刚认识朱的第一年^^...

我，他去应征Spbt...

被入选了

在Lantik前两天，

发生事故

就吃鱿鱼了....

但，没关系，至少我认识到多一个没架子的好朋友...

F3很努力很努力的读书..

为了证明我行的...

天天和俊宇斗成绩...

最后,我以在3@11里Pmr最Top成绩进入了4@12...
我的班上就只有我，俊宇，很柄贤升上来^^....jesicc自己申请进来的

4@12....

一个完全陌生的地方

以前的 班都是爱玩的班

没一认真读书...

4@12?全部乖仔乖女...(印象中的第二班学生)

但是真正来到这班后才发现，

不是这样的

他们很Active...很Sporting...

天天被老师投诉..

还把3个教Science的老师弄哭...

Bio...che...phy..

最后，Bio n phy的老师都转校了...

Bio老师被我们班气到转校...

Erm...老师，对不起拉..

我很乖的^^...

我班...talkactive...

Always talk n talk n talk...

但是，他们都很聪明
平时不读书不读书

成绩出来，吓死你...

在这我认识了慧婷，丽雯这帮死党...

她们都是乖宝宝

配合她们，我也渐渐变乖了^^

f4.....被老师捉去做Pengawas...

心不甘情不愿的

但是...pmk对我还不错

就不反了....

来到了Kem...渐渐爱上这Lembaga.....

最后，我以Calon身份拿到Timbalan setiausaha这个职位....

很多很不服，在后指指点点，这是我知道的...

管他的！

本小姐的事，你们少多管闲事....!!!!

很快的...

F4完了，进入F5....

这帮5@12学生，一点都不像Spm应考生

班上从未安静过

就算是靠近Spm还是一样.....

不过，5@12 is the best^^

至少我们很活跃

不像'某些人'只会读书..

骄傲+自大......><....

虽然天天气老师

但是我们还是很爱老师的...
老师应该也很不舍得我们这帮鬼灵精吧^^

My new daddy n mommy ^^

慧婷，丽雯，怡珊，盈莹，秉贤，宇昆，建伟等....

谢谢你们

给我了很好的F5回忆

一起走过的日子

＇朋友一生一起走，那些日子不在有....'

所有我认识过的死党，朋友(不包括认为我Lcly的人，你们闪远点)

很谢谢你们陪伴我走过的日子

虽然短短几年

但是那种感觉是永远了...

烙印在心里的深处..

sha po.....fly ^^

happy graduate ^^

shapo ting n I ^^

真的很谢谢你们，如果我做错过什么事，请你们大人有大量啊，小妹在此道谢^^

lembaga pengawas...

让我失望...

让我觉得付出，没有用

但是，我很荣幸认识到一班F6的朋友....

你们也是很棒^^

没架子，愿意分享经验等.....

毕业了咯...

百般滋味涌上心头...

朋友，谢谢你们

谢谢你们陪我的每一段路...

谢谢

Spm n stpm 加油啦！

我的所有宝贝^^

木哇！

爱你们 >.^ ♥

淑婷...你怎么了啦？

现在的心情不怎么好....

早上还好好的，

但去了Mp后，mood 就没了，不懂怎么搞的><....

今天早上，毕业典礼彩排...

我们全部都可以毕业^^...

当老师们在忙说话，

我和丽雯忙写感言^^

写给每个老师的感言...

beauty pic.....i love it all...

we print it for all the teachers...

appreciate for all the teacher....

下课没吃东西，

等班上的黄色派对，吃Mcd...

我班的班服，很黄很黄

把我们穿得很耀眼...

但是，很开心的是，

很多老师都穿上我们的班服与我们一起颠^^

老师，一点都没架子..

一群很棒很棒的老师^^

老师，我会记得你们的，

你们的用心，你们的付出

我们知道的^^

我班很Active....

但并不代表我们笨蛋...

5@12....we r the best

5@XX是很聪明丫，

但又怎样？

高傲，自大，不懂得感恩

我们是差..

但是至少我们懂得老师的付出...

老师对我们的好.....

5@12加油加油^^

你们行的！你们是最棒的...

mp...

不懂为什么，心情会那么Down....

太多东西想了...

笑？应该不是内心的真笑吧...

对这Lembaga彻底失望...

我不会再进入这Lembaga...

如果不是F6叫我去，

我一定不会去这Mp...

心情不好...

一个人静静的...

最后，我选择了发泄..

对无辜的排球发泄....

erm....

嘉颖问我怎么了..

但我答不出..

不懂我在做么

不懂我在想什么...

warren载我回家，但在那之前，他要载双仪回家先....

我对着墙壁狂打....

无辜的排球，你受苦了.......

不久，累了

停了

站在一旁休息加发呆...

warren看到了，他来在我，chao dong n hong liang回家

他一直问我什么事

需要Tissue 吗？

他觉得我要哭了..

其实刚开始没什么的

当被他问多几下，

眼泪就要开始背叛它主人了...

我强忍把那没出息的眼泪忍着了....

我怎么了？

是因为我太在乎了？

我不懂，很烦，真的真的很烦><'''

好想离开这里

好想一个人静静的发呆

好想到海边走走

好想好想....

淑婷...你怎么了啦？

最后的第五天

我最后的第五天...

今天学校派Sijil...

只有Panji-panji 和 Cermerlang的文凭..

我原本有Panji-panji的文凭的!!!

那Zulaida不懂把它放去哪里了！！！

hey....我也是第二名在Wilayah的！

虽然不是用Smk jinjang的名字赢的

但我也是Wakil zon sentul..!!!

天天只记得男生！

我，你就忘记了吗？

虽然我是代表中华独中！

但是我还是Jinjang的人拉><'

sijil...我打好了，你居然只拿男生那一堆

我的？

你弄不见了？

过分点吗？

还有中华的那一班人！

要我加入你们帮你们赢比赛时就好声好气对我说话！

现在？

文凭都还没弄好！

早知我自己拿回来

自己打！><

还有，

pengawas?

Sijil penghargaan?

在你眼中,我只有Penghargaan?

Erm...也许我在Troop D真的没做过什么！

但！

我很肯定，我在Troop C是有做东西的好不好？

那时的Troop C有人Duty么？

有人捉人吗？

我天天帮你们做那么多人，赚那么多钱！

说我没做东西？

也许，我在Troop D 真的没做东西(这我承认错)

因为一开始我对这Troop就不怎么好感

但是，我懂

嘉颖是有做东西的

这无可否认

也很觉得对不起你,因为我之前对Warren说过我不喜欢你，想换Troop...

但是，虽然我没什么在Troop duty..

我还是有在Setiausaha的岗位的好不好？

天天跑上跑下不是做东西？

天天要问这老师，通知那老师不是工作？

老师天天刁难我们，要我一个个去找，一个个去问，这是没做工？

meeting?没Ponteng过！

天天赶死赶命这样就是为了在7点前到学校！

做了这么多东西叫没做东西？

就只配拿Perhargaan?

嗯！

thevagi....!!

你真＇棒＇

最＇棒＇老师奖非你莫属

无言！

彻底无言

我终于明白为什么那么多人不做巡察员！

天天拿Sijil威胁我们？

最后就只拿这Perhargaan?

嗯，早知就不那么乖了

好好的跟你斗斗！

好好的偷懒！

但算了，一切都过了..

但是，我还是会尽量为我的Sijil Cermerlang和你Fight过

我会加油，我会在Spm 加油，

可以的话，

我不要回来F6...

我不要回来Smk jinjang!!!

婷，加油^^