I suddenly have the feel miss my blog..

I suddenly have the feel miss my friends....

I suddenly have the feel miss my family...

I suddenly have the feel want to travel..

I suddenly feel appreciated to all the things that i own now...

I have a gang of good friends..

My secondary friends....My tertiary friends..

I have a bf tat treat me very nice...

He always give the things i want to me...

He can accept all my bad temper... all my things..

I have my family members that love me so much....

They will forever at there ready for protect me n gv me support...

I love my everythings..

I appreciated......






I just a average person..

everything just average ...

Result average..... Skill average.... Relationship average...

i just a very simple person in this world...

I was average... even i try hard to change it... no-mather how hard i try to change it

i try hard to study... my result average..

i try hard to ply... my result oso average...

sometime i really dun know want how to do..

i have think b4 let myself ply hard.... bt.... i know jz will kill me..

n.. i no dare to try...

i scare if i try.... my result will nvr cover bak agn..

The coursework marks have out..

bt all the results are not i want..

6 subjects... all average at 60++

i think i hv try my best to do my revision... bt the result is still bad..

is me too greedy or i m really bad??

i dun know... haizzz.... it really make me no mood to do revision anymore...

27th December ... my sem 2 Final in coming...

i swear i hv put a lot effort for this sem... nvr absent for any lecture n tutorial..

Concentrate when during class....

bt i really dun know why my result still cant be more better...

the very cruel fact show tat Teo Su Teng is a stupid....

a very noob girl...

haizzz......bt.... pls dun nvr think to give up k??

I believe i can do it...

My future is inside my hand...

I can do it!!

Teo Su Teng can do it..

ya... just do it... n fighting....!!!

My life

Times and tides wait for no man....

Time keep passing away..

Child keep growing up..

We keep getting mature...

Parents keep getting older....


Unbelievable... i m 18th now..

Tertiary study....

After my SPM.... when i get my result..

i just got the feel "disappointed"

i can't believe i get a "D" for my BM...

and.... this cause me give up to study form six...

6A 3B 1D ... anf i have resit for my BM..

also get a C+

wat the shit of BM result><""

My dream is chemical enginnering ..

My dream is can have a high pay like my sis...

at the end..

don't know why..

i give up this dream..

i choose TARC..Diploma in Finance and Investment...

i nvr imagine i will choose this course b4..

i dun know why i will choose this..

mayb is the degree at ENGLAND have attractive me...

go oversea study is one of my dream..

mayb this is the reason why i choose this course...



I dun know i hv choose wrong or not..

all my friends that choose F6 for their tertiary life like so suffer..

all get a very bad result..

all of them totally cant accept the cruel fact..

ytd sem1 STPM finish..

many of them feel disappointed 

many of them say their will fail...

the question follow old syllabus

erm... i should glad i no choose STPM????



Mid term.... kill me...

Account.... stress....

b4 when go in college... i still think study college is honey years....

but....that is false..

mayb that is fact... but no in TARC..

14 weeks... 6 subject... every subject 3 coursework....1 assignment... n presentation..

that is stress.. i willing to study 4 more months...

but not so many subjects in every sem....

hiazzzz..... actually i got abit regret..

why i choose ART but not SCIENCE?

i just get 3.2088 at 1st sem...

what the shit terrible result???

i m not never do revision..

just because i really dislike account n economic..

haizzz.... i think i should change my thinking d...

this is the way i choose..

even that is hard.... but i should continues....


one more month... Final...

last week i absent all the lecture n tutorial..

bcz of sukipt competition...

everyday training.... but at the end lose for a bad luck..

meet the Champion team....

why our effort nvr appreciate by the god><"""

haizz... anyway...

i choose to quit volleyball school team..

yup....i love it...

but... i cant....

i have no time training everyday...

everyday training until 8+pm...

after take dinner and back.... already 9+ 10..

and the body is tired.... how to study??

assignment....presentation... test....nvr bcz i m a school team n treat me well..

haizz... for me... result more important..

Goodbye my Volleyball...I will miss you..

Anyway... keep tell myself...

gayao...Teng... u can do it...


finish class today^^

next week is holiday..

go back home later..

finish my midterm...

waiting my dear finish working n send me back home...

have a nice day ^^

♥^^ I enjoy my life ^^♥

I love my recently life....

i very enjoy my life ^^

have a lot of friends....

all the new friends...

learning how to survive in a place without protection of family...

actually...i still very near my house =P

just i keep want move out to get my freedom ...

haha.......at first....

i feel U life actually is quite busy..feel a bit regret...

but now i think that is quite enjoy compare to my friends who r studying Form 6 in school..

i c them like very stress everyday....the life is only keep study study n study...

20 essays have to memories><""

wao.....if is me.....that almost equal to kill me ><"

i m lucky i no choose F6..



haha.....but at here......i keep playing...

my test get a very a bad result><""

this make me need very hardworking when final...

anyway.....i m lucky i know a lots of friends here..

after i come here.....

i only know...TARC actually  no that bad like ppl say..

all my classmates r friendly...

they r very hardworking n clever...

many of them have scored very well in their SPM..

However...haha....all the class i join also is girls more than boys..

my tutorial class just gt around 7 boys..

but majority of them no like a boys..

mayb join too much girls jo...wakakaka...

my co-cu also face the same problem....just 5 boys join my class..

so kolian.....make them no enuf ppl to form a team...

never mind la ^^ u ppl r the best...

co-cu day....my team get the 1st place...

wao ^^ ............ happy...

very thx the supporter....u ppl r so nice ^^

n......all my teammates ^^..

u ppl make this game prefect ....<3

teacher keep ask me go school team training><""

i very lazy la sir.....

haizzz....next semester><""

promise jo go train ball...

but...i.......lazy lazy lazy...






recently....i feel myself become more positive d ^^

i long time no angry n emo d..=)

but....i miss my secondary school friends deeply...

my Hui Ting ...Yin YIn..Lai Man...Yee san...Bing......Jun yi....Choo....n so on...

i really miss them><""

long time no c them d...

haizzzzz..........

wish tat our friendship can keep moving forward..

never stop bcz of distance...

all the ppl hv their own life..

all my dear..

gambateh ^^

i love u all so much..

fight together ^^

our future is belong to us..

that will b bright n beautiful ^^

super emotion.....T^T

long time no step in to my blog d..

every times i cum back for update my blog...

sure i m in the down mood..

i m emotion agn...

i m confusing agn...

i feel want cry agn..terrible...

i dun know want how to do my decision...

i dun know how to take responsibility for my future...

i hate...

y life need do so much decision??

if step wrong...it will regret for whole life...

teng...wat ur decision now???

can u make ur mind strong???

y u always keep changing???

F6 or diploma????

can sumone cum kill me??

i hate to do decision!!

damn bullshit!!!

TEO SU TENG!!! u r terrible..... !!! u r bullshit!!!


i almost get mad><""""




n.....u oso...

paper r always cant cover well the fire...

at the end.....my sis know the true oso..

she want me make decision agn..

she want me just b a gud friend with u...

Sry...i no dare to do decision agn...

i m self fish...

can i trow all the responsibility to u??

i m tired..

super tired....

haizzz.......anyone help me??

no...nobody can help except myself..

my own future...

haizzz....

TERRIBLE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


BULLSHIT!!!! DAMN!!!! JI DAN GAO!!!

ALL GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!!

I NEED PRIVATE SPACE..

I NEED ALONE!!!!

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haizzz...

the thing bcum terrible agn...

i m the loser in this game...

i m totally lose...

i feel want to escape...

bt....recall back...

i think actually this just a small matter is it?

actually just a small case...

y make it until like the world end?

tell myself...

calm calm calm...

tat will cross over it no longer later..

i shouldn't escape...

i should face to the problem...

ya...

just the way...

face the problem...

i very need to thx all the friends who r caring me..

jiaying,warren,yin,ting,wen,bing n my dear...

thx all of u...

bcz of u all..

i think i should stop to escape...

dare to face the problem...

all will b all right after this...

tell myself cheer...

smile n b happy...!!

teng .... Ur tears hv dry...

dun cry agn..

tat is useless...

u can do it..

believe urself...

dun think so much...

believe hard it will b alright after this....

just enjoy ur life...

strong believe on urself^^

真正的朋友

Haizzz....

烦…

经过那么多事后…

我终于知道谁才是我的朋友…

谁还是真正关心我的人…

那些做作的人…

我怕了…

真正的怕了....

当我有困难时，站出来帮我的是你…

我真的打扰了你很多很多...

我居然要你为了我说了很多谎…

我真的良心过意不去…

我真的把你当我的好友…

真正的好友…

谢谢你为我说过的每一句谎话…

但是…

这几天发生太多事了…

让你左右为难…

对不起…

我真的很对不起！

我很想退出！

我很想离开…

我真的很烦！

就快要崩溃了！

我讨厌嘻皮笑脸伪装的样子!

我讨厌要天天说谎的生活！

我讨厌！讨厌！讨厌！

为什么明明就是不喜欢，还要伪装？

就纯粹为了逢场作戏？

为什么明明就是心里有刺…还要强颜欢笑？

为什么明明就是讨厌，还要假装喜欢？

我还是喜欢读书的日子…

所有朋友都过着无心机的生活…

打打闹闹…

玩脱衣…气老师…一起努力读书…一起讨论功课…

这些生活真的很棒...

至少你不用伪装…

朋友的好，是真心的好…

朋友的讽刺只是一种玩笑…

但是现在？

假！

伪装！

社会就是这样？

什么东西让人心变得恐怖？

我真的很怕…

她们做作…虚伪…

这种朋友？我不想要…

但是你是对我真心的…

我真正的朋友…

我很后悔把你卷入这麻烦…

我很后悔叫你来做工…

我很怕你会崩溃…

我很怕我会失去你这个朋友…

我很怕很怕…

这社会真的太复杂…

不是我想要的生活…

我可以隐居吗？

我可以过些简单生活吗？

我以后就要过着这些生活？

不要！

我讨厌！！！！！！

委屈

不懂从何说起！

人？

是自私的…

是现实的…

这社会并没有我们想象中简单…

社会是残酷的…

适者生存…

懂的耍心机的人就可以把简单的人打倒…

对不起！

我认输了…

我真的真的彻底输了...

现在我的感觉很差很差…

我不喜欢这样的生活…

很压力和压力…

但是，谢谢有你的出现…

你努力让我开心…

努力迁就着我…

努力为我分担烦恼…

真的很谢谢你…

至于另一个你！？

卑鄙小人！

我讨厌！

做作！

你让我懂得笑里藏刀的道理！

你让我开始对这社会产生恐惧…

我怕了！

真的怕了…

你真的很贪心…

commision抽了我们那么多！

还可以假装摆着笑脸给我们看？

那些Customers都是我辛苦Serve来的！

但是你有公平吗？

你脸皮真的那么厚吗？

全部都是你的？

配！

去吃你的大便拉！

做人真的那么贪心？

如果你贪几张罢了，我还没关系！

但是，现在的你超过分的！

天天那些单都写你的名…

吊你！！！

贪心啦…

我以前知道，但是我选择不说…

因为我知道不该这么做，但你们有吗？

你？？

说我天天欺负你？

我想是你欺负我比较多吧？

天天叫我做这样做那样…！

然后自己在那拍马屁！

死马屁精！

别假假了啦！

鸟你！！！！

每次你做错事，我帮你纠正，把这些当小事！并没和其他人说！

但是当我做错，你并没告诉我！反而去打小报告！唯恐没人知道...然后说我坏话去…

你们时常说我坏话以为我不知道？

我知道！

但是我忍…

我当做没事发生！

但是你未免也太过分了吧？

天天做错事，然后勉强认是你做！

让其他人都以为你是无辜，我才是最佳祸首！

去死吧！

统统去死吧！

说我贪物虚荣？

因为喜欢他的钱才接受他？

对！

他有钱！

很有钱！

但是，我从来就没有贪过他的钱！

不像你！

你把你男友当什么？

狗吗？

叫他来就来，叫他走就走？

喜欢就发他脾气？

他也是人好不好？

而且天天要他买这买那给你！

你是不是比我更糟糕？

买鞋，买衣！

全部我都用自己的钱！

虽然他很乐意为我付！

但是我都没接受！

这样叫贪物虚荣？

那你天天要男友买这买那给你，这叫什么？

老姐姐！

请说话时用脑想想！

我得罪到你吗？

踩到你尾巴吗？

你需要这样吗？

你？

我很讨厌！

真的很讨厌！！

忍，我已经很努力的忍着！

眼泪？

不听话的流…

委屈…

只有自己的心知道！

我讨厌

我讨厌笑里藏刀的人…

你们很恐怖…

不是我想要的朋友！

我们永远都不会是朋友！

永远都只会在平行线没有交集…

我恨！

我累！

我怕了！

委屈的眼泪只能流给自己看…

valentine's day

14th feb 2012....

valentine's day..

i m 18th ^^

many confess at the day....

many boys send gift to their love girl oso...

so sweet ^^...

bt cant imagine...

i receive oso...

a bouquet of flower....


so unbelievable.....^^

i so like it...

thx....

u make me touch...

make me soft.....

i accept jor u......







bt......

sry....

i choose honest to my family...

i tell my mum d...

n.....as expected...

a quarrel.....

a quarrel happen....

my mum dun want let me 2gether with u....

my mum dun want to see u...

she keep my hp agn...

she try to stop me for work...

she try to stop me contact with u.....

bt.....

i will try..

try to 5 chance really heart in heart with my mum...

try say with her...



n...i feel so touch to my dear friends oso...

touch for ur caring...

i really touch..

my best friend..

best friend 4ever..

i love u all...



n...my work..

i start to enjoy my job..

i getting close to my colleagues..

i think this is a good thing for me...

ah qi......

Want go jor..

she hv change work..

all the best ya^^

my dear cyy cum work 2gether with me oso..

although bcz of u...i let nathery scold..

bt....it's ok...

bcz u nice to me^^

so nvm la..

wish u will enjoy this job oso ya..

all the best to us^^

ntg special

wao...

ntg special for 2day..

damn tired...

2day work busy from 3pm until 9pm..

non stop...><"

haha....bt nvm la..

we edi lazy for so many day...haha...

after cny...no customers..

quite free oso..

everyday go work surf fb....sms.....

ntg can do d...

i decide to quite this work jor..

my last day is 14th Feb..

valentine's day...

valentine's day without lover ...

hhaha...




Guo Chong help me 5 a work...

b a piano teacher..

tmr go interview...

i m damn scare now.....

i hv long time nvr pratice my piano...

can i handle it??

my piano skill is damn terrible...

aiya><""

how ya???

i really no confidence to myself...

bt....no ppl can help me><"""

Guo Chong always ask me dun worry...

he nvr take exam oso can go teach..

ya la...i know u pro la..

u hardworking to learn ur guitar..

bt me??

just half half...

bad tempo....bad speeding><""

how o??

i really scare la...

T^T.....

god ya god...

bless me ya....

all the best to me....

teng....jiayou...


yesterday.... insomnia...

no mood..

dun know y..

until 5 am oso cant fall in slp...

lol><""

i go to bad since 1am...

aiya..kolian><""

y i want b girl??

every month sure gt the few days no mood n insomnia...

tired die me jor la....!!!!!!!!

hate hate hate...><""""""

我不配....

曾经听人说过…

在忙也别忘了微笑…

因为在某一处，某一个角落你…

将会有个人深爱着你的微笑…

你的一切…………

哇…

多浪漫…

但…听起来仿佛只是一个童话…

是个美丽的童话…

我从来没有想过真的会发生在我这丑女，肥婆的身上…

江永康…

我真的很想对你说，对不起…

对不起我的无情…

对不起我总是不领你情…

对不起辜负了你对我的爱…

谢谢你对我关怀…

谢谢你对我这几年的坚持…

你做的这些真的让我感动…

但是…

对不起…

我不能接受你...

我只能把你当好友…

很好很好的哥哥…

你是个好男人…

有钱...

愿意付出…

愿意改变…

但是…

也许你遇错人了...

你把你的真心，你的爱给了不应该给的人…

加油…

希望你找到比我更好，更懂得珍惜你的女生…

你的爱…

我不配....

对不起…………

confusing

Chinese new year ing..

2day is the 5th day of 2012 cny..

2day...i totally no mood...

i have long time no on blog n fb..

reason??

work...

now...i work at a butik shop..

name T.G the gray...

recall back when i start to work..

i really regret..

damn tired..

need stand for whole day..

n....the relationship between my colleagues n i oso not that good...

from here.....

i know something fact truth...

human r selfish...

n....i started to feel scare for them...

they can this second at ur back say all ur bad...

bt next second come to ur front n talk nice wih u...

they can hind their real feeling n pretend very nice to u..

wao!!!!

i hate....!!!

if u really don't like somebody..

pls say out...

dun like this lo...

let me feel like u all like a smiling tiger..

the tigers will kill u at any second when u uncarefull...

bt...i oso learn something from u all oso...

like makeup....

both of u always ask me to make up..

n teach me make up oso...

both of u r no patient at all..

not a good teacher....

some time both of u r friendly..

sometime both of u let me feel like a an enemy..

i really fell confuse what both of u treat me like??

n.......i always hang out with both of u..

all my close friends n family say i have change....

ya....i think i should admin i have change....

i hate the feel of alone...

u know the feel??

stay at home all the time...

life without entertainment??

when every bodies have some topic to say...

i hv no experience for the place at all??

u all know my feel???

bt.....i should not find some excuses for myself oso...

i really gv them influence...

they like buy brand...

like vios...nichii..hang 5 ...n so on...

what is this all??

b4 i work.....i hv no idea at all..

bt now...i get use to it...

i get use for rm 100 for per shoes..

rm 100 for per shoes let me think tat r cheaper...!!!

OMG!!!

i know i hv change...

i hard to control myself...

bt i already try to control..

every times hang out with them..

they sure gt buy some things...

bt...me??

just simply follow them...

n buy ntg...

i admin my self control not tat bad....

but...i can control myself n buy ntg...

tat already make me proud to myself...

bt...what in their eyes??

they always say me hangout n buy ntg...

hey..girls.....i m not tat rich la..

i just imply hangout with ur guys only....


n..................................they ask me faster to 5 a bf....

they always act sweet with their bf...

i think tat oso one of the reason i cant go in with them....

everydays see them gt bf send food n fetch them back...

actually....my heart will feel envy....

ya....a bad feeling...

i admin with it....

they let me feel alone...

n feel bored oso...

haizz...i hate this type of feeling....

i still rmb "u" tell me b4...

寂寞能让一个人失去理智。。。

b4 tat...i cant get ur feeling...

bt now..

i know it...

n...the day u ply with me ...

i tell u one sentences tat u tell me b4...

别在我寂寞时说爱我

因为我会相信你所说的话。。。

n...i know u know the feeling what i m trying to tell u....

n...i know...u just treat me as a very best friend as i treat u...

u do all the thing like a best friend....

pls....dun do over...

dun treat me so nice...

bcz i scare...

i scare i will do something wrong let me regret...

the day u tell me...

u wish me can 5 a bf in U...

u wish me hv a good future...

my heart feel confuse....

ya...thx ur wish...

n....pls stop treat me tat nice....

i feel very thx for ur this few days treatment...

accept all my unreason request...

u do it all to me...

actually u can no need do this type of things..

bt....u do it...

u know what the feel u gv me??

u let me feel i m chirldish....

i m stupid...

i m useless....

u let me feel i cant stand at ppl sides n think abt them..

like what i treat u..

i feel i m super obstinate...

sry...

i swear i wont interrupt ur life agn...

let us b best friend agn..

n...very thx...

u is a very nice guy...

wish u hv a good future n fast 5 a new gf...


lastly...

Teo Su Teng...

pls do back urself...

pls 5 back ur dream...

stop nonsense.,....childish...n stupid!!!

faster 5 back ur study mood...

5 back ur dream...

dun stop here....

pls....

do back ueself....!!!!!!